How Feminism Made Me a Better Gay Man

by: Zachary Stafford

“Gender, sex, and sexuality: what’s the difference?” That’s how my first Women’s Studies class started during my freshman year of college, around four years ago. I sat there, baffled, not knowing where to even begin, and not truly understanding why my professor was even asking this question. I had enrolled in this class because it sounded better than the random sports class that was my other option. When looking around at all my fellow class members, who, like I, did not know the answer, I noticed that I was one of only two other males in the room of 40 people. My professor finally answered her own question in a rehearsed way that would prompt us to respond with even more questions — “Sex is who you do, gender is how you do it, and sexuality is who you’re doing it with” — sparking the next four years of my feminist education.

As I ready for graduation, I keep thinking back to this moment and about how feminism has made me a better person and, ultimately, a better gay man. Beyond all the affirming peace circles, talks about sex, and poems by recently deceased feminist Adrienne Rich, I learned the power of being around women and what women can teach all of us. Gay men spend their whole lives trying to figure out their relationships with women; many will date women, and some will have sex with them, but many will only love them. When talking to people about the moment that I knew I was gay, I talk about how there wasn’t a specific moment: I had always known I was attracted to men, but what I struggled with was whether or not I liked women. Feminism is about liking women; more importantly, it’s about seeing women as equal. However, feminism showed me that it takes more than liking someone to see them as equal; you have to fight next to them to make them equal.

As a gay man, you are a man, and men have much power and privilege in the world (i.e., patriarchy), but being gay complicates that identity, making you seem less-than in many people’s eyes. Many bigots see you as being like a woman or wanting to be a woman, which gay men will internalize and see as negative. Feminism looks at that thought and says, “What the f*ck is wrong with being a woman?” and pats you on the back, and even may give you a pair of heels to strut in. This part of feminism was and is to this day empowering. I needed to hear that message at 18, and I still need to hear it now.

Sitting in classes where I was a gender minority was at first jarring. Between all the sports teams, gym rooms, and jobs I’d had in the past, I had never been around large groups of women before. I immediately became hyperaware of any comments that were degrading toward women, which led me to see the comments I myself had made in regard to how certain gay men performed their “gayness” (for example, the “flamers,” whom many in the community attack for being “too gay”) as particularly problematic and only further dividing us rather than uniting us. Feminism showed me that critiquing or making jokes about gay men for certain feminine qualities was essentially critiquing women; it was a form of sexism that hurt more people than it made laugh.

As I went through school and learned more about feminism(s), I started having a hard time connecting with old friends and even family; feminism made me hypersensitive to everything. It made me see the world as not perfect, with lots of jagged edges; I had connections to things that were not supportive of me as a person. I stopped enjoying reality shows, because they edited certain people to fulfill certain stereotypes. I stopped buying clothes without considering who made them and how the makers were exploited for this to get into my hands. I stopped doing a lot, but I simultaneously started asking a lot of questions that led me to be more aware and more politically engaged in the fight for equal rights, gay or straight.

Feminists are stereotyped as “fun killers” in some ways, or as lesbians — both of which I am not. This “f-word” has become more revered and more hated than the original “f-word,” which I find hilarious, because all feminism wants is for you and me to be equal. However, for you and me to be equal, we would have to give up some things we may like too much, and probably give it to someone we don’t like at all. I know that may not sound fun, and you probably won’t see many of the boys on Logo’s The A-List trying this out anytime soon, but try it. Even begin to think about how your wants may intrude on other needs. Or the next time you are protesting for legal action, step back and consider, “Will this further the fight for all?” Thinking outside ourselves and beginning to consider ourselves as feminists is gay, and it’s how we become better.

Famous feminist Gloria Steinem once said, “Feminism has never been about getting a job for one woman. It’s about making life more fair for women everywhere. It’s not about a piece of the existing pie; there are too many of us for that. It’s about baking a new pie.” I know it’s almost bikini season, and pie is out of many diets, but make that pie. If you can’t eat it, someone else can, and you can enjoy the smell and the company.

Note: This piece was originally featured on the Huffington Post and was republished with permission. You can find the original here.

Zach Stafford is a Tennessee writer currently living in Chicago. His work has appeared at places such as: USAToday, Thought Catalog, The New Gay, and Bookforum. Outside of writing and watching Ally McBeal on Netflix, Zach is in the process of applying to PhD programs in the field of Cultural Geography & Urbanization. Also, Zach is the Production Assistant and a Contributor to the 50Faggots.com web series, which explores the lives of effeminate gay men in America. Follow him on Twitter @zachstafford.

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